What a shit storm my life is now. 
It’s impressive. I feel like I can’t even do anything about it, apart from revert to my same habits. Destructive habits. 

From all corners of my existence people look down on me because they think I don’t care. 

And they are right. 

Maybe I should change some things. It’s unfortunate that feeling so happy can make everything else in my reality fall to pieces. I guess that balance is needed. 

I just need to start over.